[edit] roars. i wish i was less emo. and i could handle all these shit easily and say stuff like, it'll be ok -.- i was never optimistic. or drama-less. but as much as i'm fine with all that, sometimes (just sometimes) i wish i wouldn't care about the state of my relationships between ppl. grumbles. i think i need to cut down on entries like these -.- tmi plus i think mel gets worried. she seems to be e only one who does. haha. which is why i love that girl so much. if only i had e money to buy michigan uni and shift it next to lse. hrmmphs. [/edit]

disappointment seems to be all that's related to my relationships at this point of time. i wonder if you will send me off. hell, or would you even notice if i left.

its like this hole in my chest. this huge gaping blackhole.

i feel really empty. and yet i know no matter how many times i write this here, or say it out, it won't matter a thing to you.

strangers are what we have become.

i find it scary & yet interesting at the same time how we all used to fear partings, and yet it came so adruptly & swiftly. and its like you were never there. and i was never by your side. and things go on just like they used to do, just that we're not together anymore.

so many times i wish i could hate you. and not speak of you & e memories with this air of wistfulness.